Tuesday, January 11
a teary affair
i've never ever thought that i would cry on my results day :/
it was notttttttt in part of the plan.
i was actually okay until i talked to LL.
to think about it, i must have scared quite a no. of people D:
also, i have no idea why i cried. i'm serious.
all i knew was conflicting emotions ran through my heart,
& the tears just fell..
but it was an emotional outburst i had needed (;
hmm, choices have consequences.
this sentence has been floating around for quite some time,
maybe cos cy & i keep thinking about/repeating it. heh (;
i chose not to study as hard as my classmates,
knowing that i'll definitely burn out if i did..
& that choice brought me my results (;
9 distinctions may sound/look very nice (on the big screen)
but the truth is, majority of it were A-freaking-TWOs.
inclusive of my strongest subjects: HMT & triple science.
now, only one word can summarise everything:
RAWR.
no matter how much i disliked LL's way of doing things,
i guess, i really wanted to get that A1 too.
for him, and for myself. it was an assurance i strongly desired.
disappointment in myself, coupled with guilt towards LL..
especially so with his forgiveness (again-.-)
sighhh..
STILL, i am exceedingly proud of my dear friends ;D
AMIRTHA, JEREMYGOH, HANNAHLIM, HUIBIN, ELAINE, CYNTHIA
for their amazingly excellent results ;D
CONGRATULATIONS! XD
i've never ever thought that i would cry on my results day :/
it was notttttttt in part of the plan.
i was actually okay until i talked to LL.
to think about it, i must have scared quite a no. of people D:
also, i have no idea why i cried. i'm serious.
all i knew was conflicting emotions ran through my heart,
& the tears just fell..
but it was an emotional outburst i had needed (;
hmm, choices have consequences.
this sentence has been floating around for quite some time,
maybe cos cy & i keep thinking about/repeating it. heh (;
i chose not to study as hard as my classmates,
knowing that i'll definitely burn out if i did..
& that choice brought me my results (;
9 distinctions may sound/look very nice (on the big screen)
but the truth is, majority of it were A-freaking-TWOs.
inclusive of my strongest subjects: HMT & triple science.
now, only one word can summarise everything:
RAWR.
no matter how much i disliked LL's way of doing things,
i guess, i really wanted to get that A1 too.
for him, and for myself. it was an assurance i strongly desired.
disappointment in myself, coupled with guilt towards LL..
especially so with his forgiveness (again-.-)
sighhh..
this time, i lacked the courage to go up to any teacher & say:
I'm very very sorry D:
STILL, i am exceedingly proud of my dear friends ;D
AMIRTHA, JEREMYGOH, HANNAHLIM, HUIBIN, ELAINE, CYNTHIA
for their amazingly excellent results ;D
CONGRATULATIONS! XD
what we are, right now @ 9:32 PM.
