Thursday, January 27
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY :D
i got a bit irritated that my umpiring course results
weren't out yet, and my practical aint coming,
so i went to email netball singapore.
the reply was he already sent it to mrs margret loh -.-
who neglected to inform us (why am i not surprised?)
but he attached it anyway~
AND MY RESULTS WERE "O.O HUH?"
but that certainly made my day (;
i was suffering from mixed emotions the whole day.
well, i actually am still feeling a little confused :/
to be honest, i've long accepted that i've been posted to acjc .
in fact, after i got over my inital disappointment,
i didn't mind going to acjc at all.
nonetheless, i wanted to try appealing,
cause i never want to regret not knowing if i ever had the chance.
i regretted in sec one, it made me miserable for months,
and i'll hate to go through that again :/
when i first went to the school,
i caught myself thinking "i want to go home now"
sounds very primary school-ish, but it was a strong urge.
however, when i was listening to the various addresses/talks,
i was actually wondering, "will i be able to survive/excel in this school?"
and my answer was "yes."
still, i desired to go to ___.
yet, something there was pushing me away from the school.
i find not wanting to go to a school because of someone very stupid,
yet it was a strong 'push' factor indeed.
"am i ready to face...?" :/
i was also worrying if the school would treat you
any differently as you're appeal students and stuff...
what jingyue told me today in the canteen didnt help at all D:
i actually considered not following through with my appeal
but once i stepped into the school to submit the form,
i realised, despite my previous uncertainties,
i really really want to get into the school.
but now, being at home..
sitting at my computer desk,
all the push and pull factors are attacking me again :/
as ms jane would say, "leave the rest to the universe."
i got a bit irritated that my umpiring course results
weren't out yet, and my practical aint coming,
so i went to email netball singapore.
the reply was he already sent it to mrs margret loh -.-
who neglected to inform us (why am i not surprised?)
but he attached it anyway~
AND MY RESULTS WERE "O.O HUH?"
but that certainly made my day (;
i was suffering from mixed emotions the whole day.
well, i actually am still feeling a little confused :/
to be honest, i've long accepted that i've been posted to acjc .
in fact, after i got over my inital disappointment,
i didn't mind going to acjc at all.
nonetheless, i wanted to try appealing,
cause i never want to regret not knowing if i ever had the chance.
i regretted in sec one, it made me miserable for months,
and i'll hate to go through that again :/
when i first went to the school,
i caught myself thinking "i want to go home now"
sounds very primary school-ish, but it was a strong urge.
however, when i was listening to the various addresses/talks,
i was actually wondering, "will i be able to survive/excel in this school?"
and my answer was "yes."
still, i desired to go to ___.
yet, something there was pushing me away from the school.
i find not wanting to go to a school because of someone very stupid,
yet it was a strong 'push' factor indeed.
"am i ready to face...?" :/
i was also worrying if the school would treat you
any differently as you're appeal students and stuff...
what jingyue told me today in the canteen didnt help at all D:
i actually considered not following through with my appeal
but once i stepped into the school to submit the form,
i realised, despite my previous uncertainties,
i really really want to get into the school.
but now, being at home..
sitting at my computer desk,
all the push and pull factors are attacking me again :/
as ms jane would say, "leave the rest to the universe."
what we are, right now @ 10:35 PM.
Sunday, January 23
hmm, a brand new school year is coming.
what does the future hold for me?
"it's three more days to the start of school!"
well, yeah audrey. i knew it was soon,
but you didnt have to tell me that specifically D:
still fretting about where i would be posted to :/
sighhh, despite audrey's reassurance.. haha ;D
tho her reassurance is kinda more of putting the school down :X
worryworryworry.
besides that,
im also still wondering if i shld take BS1 in feb :/
but the course fees + dictionary..
haha ;D trust me to be thinking of money.
should i?
what does the future hold for me?
"it's three more days to the start of school!"
well, yeah audrey. i knew it was soon,
but you didnt have to tell me that specifically D:
still fretting about where i would be posted to :/
sighhh, despite audrey's reassurance.. haha ;D
tho her reassurance is kinda more of putting the school down :X
worryworryworry.
besides that,
im also still wondering if i shld take BS1 in feb :/
but the course fees + dictionary..
haha ;D trust me to be thinking of money.
should i?
somehow, i dont want time to pass so fast... D:
what we are, right now @ 4:48 PM.
Thursday, January 20
sigh, i've been so emotional ytd & today..
asked myself questions i didnt want answers to,
ain't it masochistic?
i'm torturing myself, ain't i? :/
ohyeah, had such a fun day ytd w ramya & amirtha!
tho i arrived late cos of stupid things that happened
simply because i was too busy thinking D:
RAMYA COOKED PASTA!
with the help of amirtha and her mum...
& i have to say, IT WAS DELICIOUS! XD
then we baked cookies and muffins together~
hmm, i shall try to improve the muffin recipe,
but the cookie recipe was GREAT! ;D
i'm gonna tryyyyy steal fm amirtha next time ^^
OH OH, amirtha kept saying..
"after A's, we shall open a bakery together okay? ;D"
haha, when we do... DO SUPPORT US OKAY? ;D
meanwhile,
let's continue tweaking recipes to perfect them! (;
asked myself questions i didnt want answers to,
ain't it masochistic?
i'm torturing myself, ain't i? :/
ohyeah, had such a fun day ytd w ramya & amirtha!
tho i arrived late cos of stupid things that happened
simply because i was too busy thinking D:
RAMYA COOKED PASTA!
with the help of amirtha and her mum...
& i have to say, IT WAS DELICIOUS! XD
then we baked cookies and muffins together~
hmm, i shall try to improve the muffin recipe,
but the cookie recipe was GREAT! ;D
i'm gonna tryyyyy steal fm amirtha next time ^^
OH OH, amirtha kept saying..
"after A's, we shall open a bakery together okay? ;D"
haha, when we do... DO SUPPORT US OKAY? ;D
meanwhile,
let's continue tweaking recipes to perfect them! (;
what we are, right now @ 9:10 PM.
Tuesday, January 18
i cant sleep tonight..
maybe it's cos i'm kinda used to sleeping late these few days,
or perhaps it's because i keep thinking about this afternoon..
hmm, to tell the truth..
umpiring today was a good experience,
although i doubt i deserved the money :/
it was annoying, irritating, and pissing off too
when the players simply lacked sportsmanship
or argued with you when they dont even know the actual rules.
but still, these are the people we're bound to meet,
these are the experiences that toughen you up.
i guess, we've all learnt to respect our umpires today (;
most of all,
i miss the feeling on court.
maybe it's cos i'm kinda used to sleeping late these few days,
or perhaps it's because i keep thinking about this afternoon..
hmm, to tell the truth..
umpiring today was a good experience,
although i doubt i deserved the money :/
it was annoying, irritating, and pissing off too
when the players simply lacked sportsmanship
or argued with you when they dont even know the actual rules.
but still, these are the people we're bound to meet,
these are the experiences that toughen you up.
i guess, we've all learnt to respect our umpires today (;
most of all,
i miss the feeling on court.
what we are, right now @ 11:41 PM.
Tuesday, January 11
a teary affair
i've never ever thought that i would cry on my results day :/
it was notttttttt in part of the plan.
i was actually okay until i talked to LL.
to think about it, i must have scared quite a no. of people D:
also, i have no idea why i cried. i'm serious.
all i knew was conflicting emotions ran through my heart,
& the tears just fell..
but it was an emotional outburst i had needed (;
hmm, choices have consequences.
this sentence has been floating around for quite some time,
maybe cos cy & i keep thinking about/repeating it. heh (;
i chose not to study as hard as my classmates,
knowing that i'll definitely burn out if i did..
& that choice brought me my results (;
9 distinctions may sound/look very nice (on the big screen)
but the truth is, majority of it were A-freaking-TWOs.
inclusive of my strongest subjects: HMT & triple science.
now, only one word can summarise everything:
RAWR.
no matter how much i disliked LL's way of doing things,
i guess, i really wanted to get that A1 too.
for him, and for myself. it was an assurance i strongly desired.
disappointment in myself, coupled with guilt towards LL..
especially so with his forgiveness (again-.-)
sighhh..
STILL, i am exceedingly proud of my dear friends ;D
AMIRTHA, JEREMYGOH, HANNAHLIM, HUIBIN, ELAINE, CYNTHIA
for their amazingly excellent results ;D
CONGRATULATIONS! XD
i've never ever thought that i would cry on my results day :/
it was notttttttt in part of the plan.
i was actually okay until i talked to LL.
to think about it, i must have scared quite a no. of people D:
also, i have no idea why i cried. i'm serious.
all i knew was conflicting emotions ran through my heart,
& the tears just fell..
but it was an emotional outburst i had needed (;
hmm, choices have consequences.
this sentence has been floating around for quite some time,
maybe cos cy & i keep thinking about/repeating it. heh (;
i chose not to study as hard as my classmates,
knowing that i'll definitely burn out if i did..
& that choice brought me my results (;
9 distinctions may sound/look very nice (on the big screen)
but the truth is, majority of it were A-freaking-TWOs.
inclusive of my strongest subjects: HMT & triple science.
now, only one word can summarise everything:
RAWR.
no matter how much i disliked LL's way of doing things,
i guess, i really wanted to get that A1 too.
for him, and for myself. it was an assurance i strongly desired.
disappointment in myself, coupled with guilt towards LL..
especially so with his forgiveness (again-.-)
sighhh..
this time, i lacked the courage to go up to any teacher & say:
I'm very very sorry D:
STILL, i am exceedingly proud of my dear friends ;D
AMIRTHA, JEREMYGOH, HANNAHLIM, HUIBIN, ELAINE, CYNTHIA
for their amazingly excellent results ;D
CONGRATULATIONS! XD
what we are, right now @ 9:32 PM.
Monday, January 10
If wearing your PE attire nearly 4hrs in advance
doesnt help make it any more real.. What will?
this feeling of detachment..
will be gone once i step into the school bah? :/
heh, it's exactly like how i felt before i got my PSLE results.
no nervousness, no anxiousness..
until you start walking to the school.. ;P
until then (;
doesnt help make it any more real.. What will?
this feeling of detachment..
will be gone once i step into the school bah? :/
heh, it's exactly like how i felt before i got my PSLE results.
no nervousness, no anxiousness..
until you start walking to the school.. ;P
until then (;
what we are, right now @ 12:26 PM.
